2010

what i've done this year?
AL is bad,totally bad,and i repeat.
working is hard and i did earn money by myself,
feel good when spending money which is mine.
and there's nothing more.
made some new friends btw.

2011 is coming,
what i want is just pass my AL that can enter University.
and get a good new job after my AL.
lastly,i hope i can have a better life,
and all of my friends do too.

xmas party2010 in JCCSS

世昌之子

hi my hair

my hair is getting more longer:)
yeah!

X'mas

X'mas is coming soon
meanwhile,
the exam is coming soon too.

i need more time,
and more concentration.

see then

my winie

i miss you too.
hope to see you for a while even a lunch time.
shall we have a lunch next week?

one more thing,
your thing still in my hand,one day i will put it into your mailbox.
check your mail box next week.

miss you.

goods

我要買個袋
睇中好多袋
收納袋銀包化妝袋大袋細袋
好想買

仲有媽咪生日
我已經諗好買個銀包比佢
唔可以再"傘"落去!

it will be better if

如果我個腦識得自動過濾一啲不明朗因素就好嚕。

vanish

i feel so bad.
many things happened,
i just bear too much,
i cant bear anymore.



i want to be disappeared.

in a dilemma.

go or not?
ahiii...
for an half year,
that's too long.

2010 sports day

class's 4x100 again

time goes by,

time goes by,but what i've done?

it's over about 2months,
i did nothing at all but few past paper.
many things still not be finished.


says is nothing but work it.
i'm trying my best to focus on my studies.

rachel always reminds me.
i know that,
and,i'm not going let her down.
let see:)

how my $ comes from?

lots of expense but no income,
how my money comes from?
tutorial schools,
exam,
jupas,
nothing else about,
i just have no more money could spend on my entertainment.

be with me

now,
a few things around me,
notes and books about different subjects be with me,
and,
coffee always be with me,
only.

WT THE XXXX

yesterday,i tried my best to getin to this school;
today,some tried her best to getout of this school.

so funny,doesnt it?


anyway,whatever you do,i'll support you,my dear.

more and more..

getting fatter and fatter,
and,
getting more dark,
my black eye circle.

回憶像個說書的人...

看見文軒上傳的照片，
在腦袋內隱藏的回憶迅速湧現。

when everthing has be done..

一切已成定局，太多事不想逐一解釋說明。
這一刻，我只想說一句謝謝，和一句對不起。

謝謝。
謝謝future，這段時間，你其實幫了我很多。
謝謝rachel，你是我的一個十分重要的朋友，沒有你，我的生活全都變了。
謝謝你的電話，我真的很開心聽到你的聲音，我很想念你…
謝謝一切支持我的朋友。

對不起，是跟慧靈說的。
在那一剎那，連我自己也不知道該做什麼，
我需要冷靜下來處理事件，
沒有告訴你，我只是不想你擔心，
我知道你很關心我，
我只是想待一切安定下來才告訴你。
對不起，沒有下一次了，好嗎！

what you say is not important for me

I believe my choice,
if you oppose,
whatever,
I dont care,
I just want to do what I will not regret.
:p

alone

nothing at all,
i just,
alone

you dont know

actually all of you dont know what happen on me and my feeling,you were not me,you would never understand how my feeling is. my upset,you'll never know cause you guys didnt getmy way,you guys wont understand that.Right now,i just very miss Rachel,the one who know me very well in this case.

I DONT

我發覺，我愈黎愈唔想返學，唔係，係唔想返HKU SPACE…原來，我真係好唔想讀呢個…

help

註冊日下午，我幾乎哭了。
我在恨自己，為何會淪得如此下場，
身在某一分校而不是大學，讀的是高級文憑而不是學士課程，旁邊那位竟是一位中五生而不是大學生！為什麼我選擇的不是重讀？為什麼我要這樣做對待自己？
我很害怕，我不想面對這個可怕的現實，我不想接受這樣的自己，我覺得我再一次選擇錯誤！我覺得我的人生又再被我破壞了，為什麼？為什麼？為什麼？我這個選擇究竟是為了什麼！在那一刻，我在恥笑著自己，究竟我還要做錯選擇多幾次！究竟我的人生會變成怎樣？我很想逃避，我不想上學，我不想見到那一群不讀書的人，我害怕自己終有一天變成他們一樣，只想著玩樂，及格，我害怕我終有一天放棄或遺忘我的目的是升上大學…救命
現在還要自己養自己，我害怕這一切，我根本就可以不用這麼辛苦！我根本就可以選擇一條正確的路…但一切都太遲，太遲…

cheung chau 2day1night

Bring You Home@Ronan Keating

the song makes me missing someone,
but there's no one.

should i, i should ..

基於我愛不作聲這點上,我會不會算得上是一個不好相處的人?
有時我很害怕那些不作聲的人,可是某程度我也是這種人.

是的我承認我不太好說話,特別是對著陌生人.至於為什麼,其實可能只是想不到怎麼開口,又怕他人不想跟我交談..

又可能是怕說錯話,根據過往的經驗,嘴巴經常犯錯…直話不斷說出,我知他人會介意,可我就是改不了,情感表達本已不太好,兜圈子的話情況可能更糟,所以不喜歡兜圈子.直說便好,誰知他她他她都不喜歡聽直話,陷入苦處的話那不如不說話..

有時候情況的這樣的,不是我不想說,可是停在嘴角邊,無原因的說不出來,話就沒了,這我改不了,話自然的吞下了,沒話說..

我知道這是一個大問題,我有改善過的,雖然進度慢,可我真的有改善到的!以前身邊還有一堆朋友,不作聲這個毛病對我社交活動沒太大影響,可是現在,大家都各散東西,大家都要面對新環境認識新朋友,啊我真的不知如何是好!我的未來是灰色的一大片啊!

即將開學了,除了一系列的東西用品要準備外,這個毛病也得盡快改掉!為著我的將來著想,是時候作出改善了,其實是不得不改善。我的天啊!這真是一件不容易的事...說話多點說話多點主動點主動點笑多點笑多點…啊!我做到的!相信自己!啊!

my rachel

八月五日
我的rachel飛了,她飛到地球的另一邊,我們相隔不只是一個車站,變成了一個大西洋.這邊的我是早上,那邊的她是晚上,我們還說笑的說大家失眠可致電對方啊,不怕打擾對方...
這天我沒有去送機,我不想面對,我知我會崩潰,我逃避這一切..可是,有些時候是沒法騙得了自己…也許連我也猜不到我是多麼的不捨..晚上我做夢,我在找rachel,見到了她,可是她突然消失了,然後我才醒覺她飛走了,然後整場夢期我只是說了一句"我估唔到原來我真係咁唔捨得佢",其餘的我在哭,哭到醒了,枕頭濕了,眼角還有淚在流下…我沒有誇張,也沒有說謊..原來,我是真的這麼不捨...
不過不要緊,一年後,她是會回來的,我知道的,我會等她的...

my new way

went to HKU SPACE,and that's my new way.

during the interview,the man said my result was quite good,but i didnt think so.
that wasn't what i expect before.and after the interview,just wait for few mintues and i got an offer already.

whatever,my new way,HKUSPACE'S M&M,marketing and management.
i will try my best to get GPS3.5 to go U..god bless me:)

my way

had a interview for school repeat today,i known the result already so i was not so upsad.
the school accepted emily's but not mine.and we chatted with christy,many cases i heard.poor cases.so i'm not going to choose repeat as the cases are very poor...

so,what's next?where is my way?

went home and check HKU SPACE's progammes.
well,my way will be here.if it goes good.

god bless me.

my dream

101102..嗯..沒有

嗯,沒有offer.好了,心息了.
其實一早已猜到了,雖然心情沒有特別變化,但始終也有少少不高興,媽媽一早致電問如何啊?
她得知後一言不發,最後只說了,啊,是啊,不行,便不行吧,無所謂啦.
她比我更想我能夠讀上大學,我知道的…她比我更不高興,我是知道的…
但我什麼都做不了.

再回到學校取成績覆核單,心情更是再沉了一沉。
我覺得這個世界偏要與我作對,什麼都跟我對著幹…
我根本就沒有心情再做任何事
但最後到了city報副學士,我只是想留一條後路,雖然這是一條不能走的後路…

今天,我比任何時候都更想入大學.
我想做大學生,我想堂堂正正經jupas入大學,但我知沒可能了...

是我的錯,是我不夠努力,定力不夠,我是知道的,只是一直以來,我用不同的藉口為自己辯駁,
今天的果,我接受,我沒有怪責其他事.
有給我多一次的機會的話,我不敢保證什麼事,我只能說,我會盡力保持那團火一直燃燒,
我會盡力…

一直以來,有一首歌都使我心動,
今天,在這一刻,我真的很高興有這首歌,我真的懂..我真的懂這首歌的意義..
多謝rubberband.

open again

here i am again,
i just wanna get a place to share my feeling and my life with my dear friends,or myself only,
there are too many people who i dont know well on the other websites and i dont wanna let them know more about me,,
thats why i get this blog again.